Yesterday...
Y'all, I stared, stared, STARED, S T A R E D at those beautiful slices of pizza. And the cupcakes, Oh the Cupcakes!
I didn't eat them.
They were off limits.
Bitches be real those fuckers done stayed on the plate!
I ate potato chips and drank my water.
I had a piece of candy - my last for eight weeks (I started the I Quit Sugar program today).
I felt okay and a little sad. Oh damn, that pizza looked good. I removed the cheese from my son's slice as he can't eat it (lactose issues) and normally that lusious load of fat carrying calories would have gone STRAIGHT in my month. But yesterday, I put it aside on his plate.
I stared.
I stared from a distance. That cheese was tempting -- it was calling -- it ended up in the trash.
But, I'm not perfect, no indeed.
1. I grabbed a big handful of popcorn, popped it in my mouth and realized something was wrong. It was cheddar popcorn ... I turned my hand over and watched those white balls of yummyness fall in the trash - that popcorn was now off limits.
2. I ate the crust from my son's pizza. I could tell that it didn't have butter on the edge (not that kind of pizza place), but that cheese was all sorts of loving up on that slice before I took it off, so really, the crust probably wasn't vegan by the time I got it.
Well, that's why I'm happlyimperfect
Monday, February 3, 2014
Seeweed is NOT for me or Day 1 of I Quit Sugar
So far today I am enjoyed my unsweetened oatmeal make with coconut milk, chia seeds, almonds and cinnamon. A great start to the day.
Lunch - not so much.
So, here's my adventure -- not a total failure, but ...
Menu: Rainbow Quinoa Nori Rolls (such a pretty name!)
Last night I cut up thin slices of carrot and cucumber and baked several beets, which I also cut up. My instructions from the recipe involved taking a sheet of (expensive) nori, laying out the veggies along with quinoa and quacamole (in place of avocado slices) and roll everything up all neat and pretty. Then, dip an end of the roll in tamari and enjoy! Fabulous, right?
I GAGGED on my first bite! No joke.
So I knew going into this meal that I was not a huge fan of seaweed/nori -- when I go to sushi restaurants I prefer to have rice on the outside of my rolls, not just the nori. But you know, I'm keeping an open mind here. So, I didn't give up...I unrolled my roll and took off some of the nori ... it eventually got soft from the tamari and I was able to eat it, but let's face it -- seaweed ain't for me.
p.s. this would have been so much better in a tortilla ... yum yum yum ... but with the quitting sugar program...it includes ALL the white stuff (rice, pasta, bread, etc.). These 8 weeks are going to befu*king hard a challenging adventure!
Lunch - not so much.
So, here's my adventure -- not a total failure, but ...
Menu: Rainbow Quinoa Nori Rolls (such a pretty name!)
Last night I cut up thin slices of carrot and cucumber and baked several beets, which I also cut up. My instructions from the recipe involved taking a sheet of (expensive) nori, laying out the veggies along with quinoa and quacamole (in place of avocado slices) and roll everything up all neat and pretty. Then, dip an end of the roll in tamari and enjoy! Fabulous, right?
I GAGGED on my first bite! No joke.
So I knew going into this meal that I was not a huge fan of seaweed/nori -- when I go to sushi restaurants I prefer to have rice on the outside of my rolls, not just the nori. But you know, I'm keeping an open mind here. So, I didn't give up...I unrolled my roll and took off some of the nori ... it eventually got soft from the tamari and I was able to eat it, but let's face it -- seaweed ain't for me.
p.s. this would have been so much better in a tortilla ... yum yum yum ... but with the quitting sugar program...it includes ALL the white stuff (rice, pasta, bread, etc.). These 8 weeks are going to be
Saturday, February 1, 2014
Why Vegan? Why Quitting Sugar?
Why am I trying out being a vegan?
I'm sick of being fat. I'm sick of being fat. I'm sick of being fat. I'll be 40 in just over a year. I've spent the first half of my life fat, do I want to continue this way? NO NO NO NO -- No, I don't thank you very much.
Why am I trying to overcome my addiction to sugar?
I'm an abstainer, not a moderator - give me a box of cookies and those suckers are gone!. I'm also a compulsive overeater. If I tried to have just one of the cookies -- well it doesn't work. Why? Because I become obsessive. I'll walk away...for a while, but I will likely return...and then return again and again until they are all gone. And let's not talk about the time I spend thinking about the cookie and trying not to go get them. I have more important things to do.
So what?
So, this means for me to eat healthily it would be best to completely eliminate certain foods from my diet. I was vegetarian once before and was surprised at how easy it was. I remember eating out and looking at the menu -- anything with meat was "NOT AN OPTION" -- I'm just going back to that and expanding my No Options component.
With sugar I've noticed that when I eat something delicious and sweet and wonderful I feel like shit for a while afterward. Why would I knowingly feel like shit when to avoid that feeling all I have to do is avoid this crappy food anyway?
I'm sick of being fat. I'm sick of being fat. I'm sick of being fat. I'll be 40 in just over a year. I've spent the first half of my life fat, do I want to continue this way? NO NO NO NO -- No, I don't thank you very much.
Why am I trying to overcome my addiction to sugar?
I'm an abstainer, not a moderator - give me a box of cookies and those suckers are gone!. I'm also a compulsive overeater. If I tried to have just one of the cookies -- well it doesn't work. Why? Because I become obsessive. I'll walk away...for a while, but I will likely return...and then return again and again until they are all gone. And let's not talk about the time I spend thinking about the cookie and trying not to go get them. I have more important things to do.
So what?
So, this means for me to eat healthily it would be best to completely eliminate certain foods from my diet. I was vegetarian once before and was surprised at how easy it was. I remember eating out and looking at the menu -- anything with meat was "NOT AN OPTION" -- I'm just going back to that and expanding my No Options component.
With sugar I've noticed that when I eat something delicious and sweet and wonderful I feel like shit for a while afterward. Why would I knowingly feel like shit when to avoid that feeling all I have to do is avoid this crappy food anyway?
How am I doing this?
The one and only time I've lost a significant amount of weight was about three years ago. I did it without spending much money and it became the focus of my life. I eat, breathed and ate monitoring my food. I woke up and walked each morning, read a health book in the morning and at night, listed to a hypnosis CD for weight loss, tracked my food on sparkpeople.com, etc. It was great, and as I said, didn't cost much. It was a lot of work.
Now. Things are different.
Betrayal
Divorce
Single Momx2
S T R E S S S T R E S S S T R E S S S T R E S S S T R E S S S T R E S S S T R E S S
I'm getting help, lots of help.
1. PAN Vegan Pledge -- meeting for five consecutive classes - I'm a people person so this is great for me. Cost = $0.00
2. I Quit Sugar (www.iquitsugar.com) - an 8 week online course with FULL meal plans. Nearly every bite I will eat for the next eight weeks will be spelled out to me. Cost = $140.00
3. Books - yeah, I'm buying some books instead of just relying on the library. Seriously considering a Kindle so that I can have my inspirational books close at hand all the time.
and
4. This blog! I don't intend to share this with many people, only those who I know would be interested, but just doing it and documenting my journey will be helpful - I'm sure of it.
Now. Things are different.
Betrayal
Divorce
Single Momx2
S T R E S S S T R E S S S T R E S S S T R E S S S T R E S S S T R E S S S T R E S S
I'm getting help, lots of help.
1. PAN Vegan Pledge -- meeting for five consecutive classes - I'm a people person so this is great for me. Cost = $0.00
2. I Quit Sugar (www.iquitsugar.com) - an 8 week online course with FULL meal plans. Nearly every bite I will eat for the next eight weeks will be spelled out to me. Cost = $140.00
3. Books - yeah, I'm buying some books instead of just relying on the library. Seriously considering a Kindle so that I can have my inspirational books close at hand all the time.
and
4. This blog! I don't intend to share this with many people, only those who I know would be interested, but just doing it and documenting my journey will be helpful - I'm sure of it.
Day 1 - Vegan
February 1, 2014
First day of the Peace Advocacy Network's Vegan Pledge. At the first meeting I enjoyed a vegan cookie, but didn't feel too well after even a few bites - felt sick and got a brief head ache -- I think it's the sugar...stuff gives me a head ache I'm sure.
Feeling very good about decision to go vegan. It is WONDERFUL to have a support network.
Went to Harmony Farms afterwards and filled my cart full of stuff that has never been in my house. Again, it was nice to have someone help me in the store - someone who didn't look at me weird and knew exactly what it was that I needed.
Afterward went with the kids to Whole Foods, again with my I Quit Sugar shopping list. In the produce section I felt overwhelmed -- again, buying food I've never tried (fennel anyone?) -- but I thought to myself, why the heck, give it a try - it can't kill you and in fact will probably make you feel better.
Concerns right now?? Mainly I'm worried about making the time to plan my meals. There are so many things I need/want to do. I'm looking at the shit-hole that is my living room, thinking about the BDB book I'm 3/4 way through, and the vegan books and the other books and all the produce waiting to be eating in the fridge.
I FEEL FRIED! It's okay, it's all good. I'll manage. I'd love a good night sleep...but I just gave my bed up to the kids b/c they weren't going to bed.
First day of the Peace Advocacy Network's Vegan Pledge. At the first meeting I enjoyed a vegan cookie, but didn't feel too well after even a few bites - felt sick and got a brief head ache -- I think it's the sugar...stuff gives me a head ache I'm sure.
Feeling very good about decision to go vegan. It is WONDERFUL to have a support network.
Went to Harmony Farms afterwards and filled my cart full of stuff that has never been in my house. Again, it was nice to have someone help me in the store - someone who didn't look at me weird and knew exactly what it was that I needed.
Afterward went with the kids to Whole Foods, again with my I Quit Sugar shopping list. In the produce section I felt overwhelmed -- again, buying food I've never tried (fennel anyone?) -- but I thought to myself, why the heck, give it a try - it can't kill you and in fact will probably make you feel better.
Concerns right now?? Mainly I'm worried about making the time to plan my meals. There are so many things I need/want to do. I'm looking at the shit-hole that is my living room, thinking about the BDB book I'm 3/4 way through, and the vegan books and the other books and all the produce waiting to be eating in the fridge.
I FEEL FRIED! It's okay, it's all good. I'll manage. I'd love a good night sleep...but I just gave my bed up to the kids b/c they weren't going to bed.
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